Tuesday, April 12, 2005 they are like random thoughts. it's like people talking inside my mind. there so many hundreds of them talking at the same time and i don't know who to listen to first. they just don't want to stop. it's driving me insane. seriously.
im scared. i remember when i was young, i used to wake up to nightmares. i hear voices talking just like what is happening now, except they were in my dreams. now it is a constant thing drilling in my head. i would also dream of building blocks. neverending. layers after layers. it's all coming back. im scared.
& now i can't run to my parents and cry outside their room like i used to. why? cause im a big girl now and i deal with problems myself. please stop talking. i can't sleep this way! rahhh!
im so alone.
- praying
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